E Ho`a`o no i paukuhihewa

Try it and rid yourself of illusions.

`Olelo No`eau Kupuna Mary Kawena Pukui



Sunday, May 27, 2012

Serenity and stability ... A North Node in Taurus Story

Soul Purpose: serenity and stability, regaining a sense of the sacred in the ordinary, a sense of having earned and gained by one’s own efforts, honoring good traditions and preserving what is valuable for future generations.
Shadow: Looking to another for definition, self-confidence, or too much support. Taking things that aren’t yours. Collapsing into a felt sense of emotional pain from previous lives, and adapting an overly serious, gloomy attitude. Going to quickly into studying the occult and transpersonal realities, and thereby taking a spiritual bypass on your emotional life.


-Elizabeth Spring "North Node Astrology ... Taurus"
These are the 'Ole Moons before Mahina the moon becomes full; a good time to reflect and inventory the value of my life journey.  Before moving on to new ventures or projects, or as Earth People such as my Ancestors the Kanaka knew, the 'ole moons were a good time to make sure there were no leaks in the wa'a (canoe).  The week's focus in my Wa'a Mo'olelo, the storytelling workshop takes 'ole into account.  Before starting a new storytelling exercise we review the practice and process of creating and using rope or cord to remember a story.  I was stitting on the seawall steps with my friend yesterday.  We had just finished chanting E Ho Mai, the Aunty Edith Kanakaole chant asking for wisdom; we meet Saturday mornings at the water's edge giving our voice to the Akua and what answers come.  Pete was with us for the chant but as our time turned to grandmother talk he wandered on his own.

The morning was serene and the sky clear and beautiful.  The tide curled in miniature waves of such beauty.  If you did not notice you could miss the delicate movement or mistook the movement as an indication that the tide was coming in.  The eagle ate in the eel grass up shore from us.  On the seawall steps we perched and my friend asked me something about the Hawaiian culture.  She said she knew how the Maori view the topic of breath but wanted to know what the Hawaiian culture said about it.  Quickly I sorted through the index cards of notes in my mind the image of an old fashion Rolodex of cards and information remains.  What I shared with her was a compilation of stories that are culture as I understand it, bits of research and experiences that describe the why and the how of a cultural practice.  My explanation was a story rope that I had never shared in quite this way until she asked me.  The setting and sitting with time after 'oli, after having asked for the wisdom to know the seen and unseen at the moment opened the way.  Without expectation a question was posed and a story told.  "I hope this answered your question," I said when the story was pau.  She said it did.

Moments later someone called her name from the yard on the hill behind us.  A young man, the grandson of our mutual friend was there to cut the lawn.  He ended up coming to the steps with us and had a story of his own that would not wait to be told.  The two grandmothers listened to his youthful tale and more than once I was slapping my thigh and hooting with laughter at his adventure.  My friend had a phrase from the Maori to describe the tale that sought out the audience and recipient who would honor the story rope, this gift.  It slips from memory that name the Maori give.  But, the gift itself on this sacred ordinary morning is now a knot (or bead) on my story rope.  With space between us, my husband and I knot events and sacred ordinariness onto our personal story rope.  Air and ha the breath of life dances and we dance to be individual beings living a commitment to be coupled.  While my friend and I sat on the steps we were available for the youthful gift of young adventures.  Later still as I walked up the sloping steps to my friend's cottage she wrote me a check an "offering" for the work I do.  I was not expecting it, but received it heartily.

The North Node astrology for Taurus from Elizabeth Spring is one of the markers and revisted stories I call upon as I venture.  It's a healthy and helpful marker for me over time.  This 'ole moon I get this PURPOSE: "regaining a sense of the sacred in the ordinary, a sense of having earned and gained by one’s own efforts, honoring good traditions and preserving what is valuable for future generations." SHADOW:  "Looking to another for definition, self-confidence, or too much support. Taking things that aren’t yours." With space between the knots on my story rope there is room for my soul to feel at home in my skin.  And, the hooting laughter?  Priceless.

a hui hou.








Wednesday, May 23, 2012

"the things upon which life depends" - a tab from terri windling's blog



"The creative act is a letting down of the net of human imagination into the ocean of chaos on which we are suspended, and the attempt to bring out of it ideas...

This snip of a quote from Terrence McKenna can be read in full by linking to Terri Windling's blog here: 
http://windling.typepad.com/blog/2012/02/terrence-mckenna.html#comments

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

He'elele ka moe na ke kanaka

A dream is a bearer of messages to man
- Kupuna Kawena Pukui, 'Olelo No'eau

My dreams have been swhirling lately, filled with bits and pieces of information I recall some of it but more of it remains an undigested meal.  My na'au is busy, my head not content and yet there's time for the messages to seep like water where they're needed. 

2008, the open door in the making

This blog, Makua O'o is an open door with fewer updates than when this place was new.  I was learning to navigate the cyber-world while I also learned how to appreciate the messages of an illness that was quickly wiping my world out, as I knew it.  The years of blogging that began in 2008 are recorded here like my people of the canoe had done centuries earlier, and continue to do in the creation of 'oli.  When we began rebuilding our lives I was making my way through uncharted waters and needed a tool to mark my path.  Words, story and mana'o have been a navigational tool that serves.  The word Mo'olelo means the succession of words or pieces of a story; words following one after the other. 

This morning I came to Makua O'o to see whether people are still visiting and found a few still do.  Welcome, you are still very welcome.  My journey, my life and the writing and storytelling I do have feathered as I get better and better, recovering my health refreshed in body and soul.  Some things change.  Some things stay the same.  What stays the same?  The tools for living as Makua O'o remain constant.  The words to describe the tools change/evolve as I am given access to understanding 'Olelo Hawaii (Hawaiian Language) with more depth.  The internet allows me to research and learn from the brilliant lights of young(er) kumu and translation of the timeless wisdom (Kumulipo, Na Po Mahina).  I thrive on this stuff and as I learn I spread it around -- one blog at a time, or several blogs at once!

What changes?  Seasonally, Nature changes, the heavens huli, planting seasons come and go.  I age, my hair grays, my eyes weaken.  On the other end of that cord of record my pre-conceptions change as I recognize the illusions that have limited my thinking.  Recovery from long-term illness does that, and who I am now is changing.  For whatever reason (it might be my astrology or my genetic application) I share the process. 

If you have come here to read what a Makua O'o does over time, you might like reading my other blogs.

MoonTattoostories
Here is where my love of storytelling, characters and time through history weave a mythic fiction from culture, place and connections between generations.  I am writing the fiction on-line and include my thinking and my researching as I sniff out the next connection or digest a dream not yet ready for translation.

Story-Canoe ... Wa'a Mo'olelo
This is a publicly available blog for storytellers.  Behind the scenes a private blogspot houses weekly workshops where I share and teach storytellers.

Feathered Ground
This is the journal where spill my discoveries and better-and-better improvements with the Gupta Amygdala Retaining (brain retraining) Program.

Throughout the blogs I remain an elder-in-training Makua O'o.  There is always more to know, so I learn and share the navigation and translate.  The kapu moons begin tonight, with KANE (notice the underscore substitute for the kahako because I have no 'olelo software ... flexibility!)  Link here for the Ke Ala O Ka Mahina Calendar to count on the moon.

Mahalo nui loa kakou, thanks to you for continuing to visit Makua O'o.  Hope you come visit me at the other places, too.

Mokihana 

Monday, April 16, 2012

Rocking, Roller Derbying, Recreating

Life is not static.  Spring proves that better than most times, especially when you are paying attention or being made to pay ... attention.  Makani kama'aina, the familiar winds here on Whidbey are becoming familiar to us as we root ourselves a bit more and make peace with the winds that live within us.  I think, the two (the inner and outer) winds are not the same but have conversations and sometimes the busy or confused po'o (head) eavesdrops.

I am recreating and re-choosing the presents and the future of life today.  This new spring has brought me the gift of valuing the imbalances as "perfect"  ... the journey through painful illness and disconnections with what was is a rock and roll love affair.  This place, The Makua O'o blog has opened, closed and re-opened as I navigate this journey attempting to pick my way through the opihi of stars and constellations ... so many choices, distractions and illusions.  Which one?  Which next? 

This weekend a planned venture into my rock and rolling future happened.  Check this out:  Roller Derby!



My family and two friends went to our first ever Jet City Roller Girls experience.  We went to cheer on a Whidbey Island gal we know from our community.  We also went to be somewhere we'd never been before.  I was there, in a large in-door setting with hundreds of folks and girls, women dressed for rolling and rocking and wowsers ... we were there to be distracted and entertained.  By night the women are fit and fitted out for a bout that sends them into a 'pack' with a Jammer (the gal with the star on her helmet) poised to break through the pack and roll through all and any obstacle to score points.  I gotta tell you it took me most of the night (3 hours) to follow the sport and get the drift of it all.  By day these women are your kid's teachers, the library in your town, the checker at your local grocer.  Talk about SuperWoman ... she lives next door, or in your building.  Heck she could be your sister!

Life can be recreated... surrounded with scents, and concentrated humanity I did enjoy and experience something new and fun. 

My 2012 garden(s) are being planted:  peas, carrots, beets, summer squash and sunflowers are in the moist dark dirt.  Little lettuce seeds are making ready in our green house and three pots of la'i (green ti leaf) are growing nicely.  My first daffodils (small triple heads) are blooming and branches of camilia blossoms smile from vases all over the forest.

My writer's voice is having a lot of fun with a story of time-travel, history, culture and all the things I have found to love on my way from kela to ke'ia.  Here is a link to my fiction in the making http://www.moontattoostories.blogspot.com/ and the story Splinters.  You can read the story on-line as I write it.  Your comments are welcome there as this makua o'o finds there are many places for wisdom and bridges over time and time again and again.  Here is a snip from one of the recent bits of my mythic fiction in the writing.  One of the main characters Max unfolds the story of time-travel:

From Part Nineteen "The many meanings of words"



"Max was not haughty about his teachings, at least not now and not at this stage of lifetimes. He was not too long a Mo'o Kanaloa, a teacher and healer, to remember that his lessons included being boastful, brash, broad of chest and lean on humility. This night on the Onomea Bay where once the Great Chief 'Ailu'au stood, so too did Max share time with the ali'i nui. The teacher allowed himself the luxury of halting time, asking for permission to do this thing that appeared to be something reserved for pausing electronic devices, Max asked permission of The Keeper of time and waited for approval. His 'oli was not complex, but it did address his elders and it was asked for a specific purpose, and thanks were included before he recalled the memory. Hina, goddess of the Earth's one moon kept time with the beating of her kapa beater. It was to her that requests like this were made. Max knew it was 'Ole Pau, one of the phases of Hina's cycle when a wobble allowed for revisiting time. "Thank you Mahina nui," he said... "

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Walking

My son is with us in the woods.  He has moved himself off the mokupuni o Hawaii (left Hawaii) and is transitioning.  He and I went into town and shared a plate of buttermilk pancakes and conversation, and before heading back to the woods I cruised the street overlooking Saratoga Pass and saw the extremely low tide.  "Walk?"  Yes, he was agreeable to a walk. 

The beach walk along the Langley shore is one of my favorite places to connect with the moment.  Spring has definitely come to Whidbey Island though the cool breeze is still lean in temperature the blue sky and promise of more sun warms me.  The silty shore flowed to a substantial skirt owing in large part I think, to the clay banks crumbling from the seeping fresh water above.  Huge caves are carving hollows at the base of the Langley village above.  We walked north after climbing down the barnacle encrusted cement steps leading to the beach.  The feathered clans were every where, crows, gulls and a solitary Blue Heron all at work finding things to eat.  Anchored just past the skirt of silt and sand was a boat with motored sounds coming from it.  From our initial perspective long blue hoses hung over the rail and into the hands of three people on the sandy spit.  It didn't take much to realize we were watching commercial clammers.  But what we both were seeing was something new to us.  When my son was a boy we lived now far from this Saratoga Pass beach, where we had a life very much involved with what goes on with Washington maritime life.  We shoveled uncountable holes over twenty plus years seeking out the bivalves that would feed us in chowders.  The enterprise was manual and it mattered that we covered up the holes when we were pau, and only took what we would eat.  Commerical clamming? 
The hoses were like an extreme power washing that blew the clams out of the holes and harvested as a result.  We didn't stay long enough to see whether they covered up the holes after. 

Walk, chat, silence.  Walk, chat, silence.  Time was spent in this simple and appreciative form of being together and nourishing.  Noticing life being lived by barnacles, mussels my son and I speculated on what we saw and made connections with our own lives.  Stepping on the irregular surfaces of rocky shore and mudflats my body exerted energy and moved the stale pockets of mana left from the long sedentary winter.  Transitions are like that:  irregular yet somehow expectantly familiar as one moves from that place over there, to the next space between, on the way to a new here. 

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Makua O'o Re-opens

There surely is a time, and a season for all things.  The first full moon will be bright in the sky where I live tonight.  Hoku.  I have rested and begun a retraining program that excites me at a deep and powerful place within.  I am in the fifth month of the Gupta Amygdala Retraining Program, to retrain my ancient survival focused brain of beliefs, patterns of acting and feeling and I am getting better and better with each month.  The process is sometimes slow, yet steady; other times I make region leaps and feel a new kind of calm confidence.  

The 'Olelo No'eau, the parable and inspiration words of wisdom that has been the backbone of Makua O'o for many years is this one:  E HO'A NO I PAU KUHIHEA.  I have integrated the translation "Do the thing, and rid yourself of illusions" to be my living mantra.  This 'olelo no'eau has helped me to grow my tail and my tale as the mo'o I am with joy, understanding, forgiveness and love.  I believe the parable was tailor made for me and my journey.  I am a mo'o with the name "Mokihana" how can I be otherwise.  I am a storyteller with tales to discover, dust off, re-weave with new information, and tell.

I am excited to re-open the pages of Makua o'o the blog. When and how the stories here will unfold is not pre-destined.  Sometimes stories have a long gestation period, sometimes multiple births happen.  Welcome to the place where I have found comforting for years. 

Aloha kakou,
Mokihana Calizar

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Untangling from the sting

Know that wisdom is found in many places … SOFTEN THE GROUND OF YOUR BEING. 

This is one of the tools of the Makua O'o and it means something new to me today, this now.  Often without knowing how my thoughts wear grooves in my brain and my habits, I live from a maze of thoughts that harden around me.  Newly into this Gupta training yesterday was a groove too well worn:  habit lived.  I write to soften the ground of my being (forgiveness) and let the habit ease a bit.  TRYING too hard to stop, stop, stop the tangles tighten and that's the truth.  Not much room for trust, I get through, pray, cry, do all my former 'fixes' and finally fall to sleep and the dreams are filled with the former 'fixes' and in the morning Pete comes to kiss me awake.  My eyes are puffy from the neuro-transmitters on high and the whatevers on the left and right path scratching paths between the deep grooves and the embankments where the new thoughts slowly make their mark.

Soften the ground, after the day of the hornet's sting. That would be trust.  Let go.  That would be God's work.

From the writing piece called "Madrona" at Prime the Pump

"...Baby and mother rooted and the years of being a Northwest family feathered the earth beneath me.  I think the ground broke in bits in places that would remember me and him when I wasn't looking..."